i am blank

so i went to di zhang dian w/ my fams for chengbeng and i woke up v early, and that screwed up my morning mood. duh! i hope it'll be cloudy or rain, perhaps, will be better than just cloudy so we could postphoned it right? but then it turned out ECTREMELY SUNNY ! duh duh duh! then after those killing-hours, we finally went home. this is best for me, being home on sunny day. yahoo !
OH~! here check this out, KL offered me his vids and i swear i LOLed out my heart.


he's such so.... whatever. it's my pain killer anw. HA HA HA.

so this is my second order :))

a friend of my sister in Bali ordered 20 sunkiss cupcakes & 15 chocolate cupcakes.
so they will be send tomorrow. ah, hope they'll stay in best taste after 3-days flight *amen!

Do switch off your lamp due to Earth Hour, thanks :)

so it's Selwinda's 15th birthday ytd ! :))
FYI, i didn't post last night because i slept very early. headache and queasy. I felt very uncomfy.
so these are the photos.

first cake goes to... Jordi :D



and us :)


last minute.

and hey friends, remember that today is the last Saturday of March, so it means today is Earth Hour.

Love the Earth?
DO switch off useless electronics just for 60 minutes from 20.30 to 21.30, please :)

just one hour of darkness for a longer lasting brighter tomorrow :)

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and i've just finished baking. i am damn bored today but i don't want tomorrow :(
so i've spent my whole afternoon to evening by trapping my self infront of my pc. OH~! KL & i were nostalgia-ing about the TAHU ISI faved by most of St.Yoseph's students i guess. and the problem is, when can i have those tahu isi againnnn?? cause KL said that it alrd out of stock @ 1. so HOW CAN I ?? anybody gonna gimme a favor to go and buy, please? :(

p.s : i cant imagine how many weights ill put on after today. i ATE so many chessesticks alrd. SCREAAAMMMMMMM =\

i am a kitchen-lady for a day.

& finally i have a banner for my blog :)))
so i spent my 10 from 24 hours baking in the kitchen today.
and it's really tiring. i bake cupcakes and a birthday cake. Selwinda -one of my classmates- will have her birthday tomorrow (: so i bake her this moccacolatefee cake. i have no idea for such name =\

actually 55 invited me to her belated birthday party tonight @ Sun but i am exhausted so i refused her. SORRY ):


EH, it doesn't rain tonight? ....

i'd rather hurted honestly than misleaded with a lie.

for something that i can't take for good, i won't take a risk on it.
for some people i know i won't hold any longer, i won't forced on them.
one step at a time, slow but sure, i know i can do this.
Hope what i chose won't turn out all wrong :)

IMY.

it rains again..but unlike any other rainy nights, i dislike tonight..

and i dislike this morning too, caused by the topic someone brought up this morning.
why should he actually IN PURPOSE to talk about those things w/ me?
such a joke to see my unhappy face suddenly pops out huh?
:(

ah, let's talk about a nice thing. I am so proud of myself that i could make my own little little income ;) sorry, i am way tooooo excited for this. excuse my over-react ok? smooch*
Mom suggested me to start this little little business of my own. I have fun with this, and i know i put my self to fast on cloud number 9. No doubt that i still have doubt in my mind : how long will this go on?

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i just finished my dinner w/ mom & dad. Dad is home for (n)days. I should feel excited about this, but..i find myself not :s
skipthat. i still have bio hw to finish and i am darn lazzzzzyyyy. finishing eclipse is much more tempting for me *evil laugh*
But then i have another job to do. sht, i forgot smth :(
so goodnight fellas, have a nice sleep,
xoxo :)

Dear, i miss you milessssss away ;(

doodabeedeedoo!

i just love today so much. so long since i never felt this feeling anymore, finally i really :)

so my dear Shelly is gg back tomorrow morning. Have a safe flight baby! ;))
and tonight, im going to help my mom to bake, and will finished probably at midnight. WTH is my mom doing, she doesnt usually stay up late at night doing jobs -.-
arghss..


photos today aren't finished upload yet.
some are w/ shelly, cathy & winston.
visit my facebook to take a look :)

♥

♥ sweet love goodnight :)

teddy.

i am looking foooooooorward for tomorrow ! It'll be a small reunion for us, childhood little friends :)
Shelly Efendy, Jesicapri Gani, Vinsensia Angelis, Brigitte Allen, Sherin, Ivan Junio, and other more ! :D
...........
I was trapped in a chat with Wesli's friend. He used wes' msn and chatted w/ me. well i did suspect that - Wes'J - is not Wesli. Till i trapped him back !! HAHA.
Quit boring actually, it's raining again and again. Played winks with Kenny a.k.a Black Holic till we dropped =.=
I baked some again this evening. They are for Shelly. She's gg back on Sunday morning..ah, why it seems so fast?? only a week :( wish that we could spend more time. If only we go to the same sch, living in a same town, time managing will just be a piece of cake. Sooooo..

IM ON TOP OF MY EXCITEMENT !!

thankful me.

My day is good today, although shelly had canceled our lunch today. and probably tomorrow too, but she made sure that we'll go out after school since i don't have any tuition to catch on. Sorry, Cathy ! blame on her :p and and well, i owned a new white loose-but-cool shirt 30 mins ago. LOL. I was looking for my skirt when i suddenly found this shirt. And it is BIG. I started to feel excited and try it on. I can't deny not to say it looks good HA HA. Then i asked mom who's shirt is that? And she said, "That's from your sist! She gave it to me. But it doesn't fit me. You can have it if you want." OH I <33 MOM ! :DDD And she gave me a bag too. Hmm..i don't know what type of bag it is. in mandarin they called it shui tong bao. And it's niceeee !
I bursted soooo much laughter at school today, esp in the last lesson. My friends were going wild. HAHA. we took videos, and they are a total shame ! LOL. but fun is all we had :))

hard time recover a brighter :), don't you think so?

i'll move on.

i googled, yahoo, 4shared-ing, rapidshare-ing but i couldn't found any of them :(
then a hero came. He sent them to me :D thankyouuuuu ! You are the star tonight :p

This road that I'm taking twists and turns
My life, my chance turning dreams into reality.
Down this path faced with so many things
Sometimes I feel like giving up and turn away
Can't seem to go on
And I've been thru' this before
Now where am I?
Where do I stand?
A little lost here.
But I'll remember.
All those times you've brought me thru'.
I'd be a fool to give up cos' the goal is near

Here I am, once again caught in the rain.
Looking back I've come so far And I want to carry on
Take a step at time
It's alright.
Even thru' this rain, I want to :) again

:)

this is like heaven to me! finally...

guess who fetched me from school this afternoon? ;)))
haha. thought that you could lie to me huh? i know your tricks..
She phoned me 5 mins before school's bell rang and i was unable to stop my self for being so hurried to meet her. So i escaped from my math class and i succeed :D
And i asked her to get inside school, as she has said before she wanted to know Cathy Djaya. So i set both of them to meet each other.
After the chat, we went to Sun for chillin.
She'll spend only 1 week here, and we'll gather up again this saturday since we'll be busy by our own activities :(
but no worries, WE'LL SPEND WHOLE SATURDAY! hurray :DD




this is why we call our selves BigEater :p

Thanks for this afternoon baby!

oh, and enjoy this with the rain ♪ :)

just show up, man.

They say me dumb, fool, way too easy-going, not-a-hater(?!), and etc. But the point is, they say that i am too kind for those two-faced 'friends'.
I don't know, what i know, is that you can't payback hate with hate too. So i assumed that it's better not to talk to those people anymore, rather than to take an action on them, such as revenge or what. I really do not have any idea why you guys should treat me this way. The breakdown, empty promises, no true friends (except the one in sg), i feel so..left down here. It has been 4 months, and i still feel..yah, left down. If only i could have everything i have in my life, I won't take much. seriously, you might think that i am too sensitive or being so pathetic. But how can i stand still without breaking inside? YES you would say that "Shelly, isn't that weak. She could handle this. blablabla."
But that's not what i want. I don't need concern. mark it, I DON'T NEED IT.
I told Shelly about this ard week ago, and she told me that she's feeling the same too right there. and my heart is falling appart as i find the fact that she's facing the same things too. ah, life is not easy. I know i shouldn't complain all the time. Step forward is a must. I am in process anyway, but this things are just like the black clouds over my head.
I want my sunshine. I am waiting for it actually.

kety perry - thinking of you.

white(s)

so i end up no where.
I canceled my plan to accompany Thomas to go to GMS cause i am tired, and i need to give a hand to my mom. We were accidentally in red today. haha. He was in my home since 9 a.m and spent more than 6 hours. Yeah, we bake more than 100 cupcakes; lemon and chocolate :)
I bet lemon is better than chocolate, even i didn't taste them :p
So after finished packing, we sent some to Irene Hartanto.

You might find my blog a lil' bit boring these days without photos.
I just don't capture these days. Moody me, huh?
And i don't know what to do tomorrow. I was invited to Irene's house by her mom for her aunt's wedding. I don't know if i will or won't go, since i don't know them realy well.

If we never see each other again, and one day,
you feel a certain presence beside you..
That would be me, loving you,
wherever I am.

I am addicted to My sassy girl by Charlie Bellow (Jesse Bradford) and Jordan Roark (Elisha Cuthbert). I dont know, the movie just stole my heart away, AW ! :))
It has been realeased since 2008, but i just watched it a week ago.
The story is sweet and touching- for me. How the plot works, how their chemistry pops out, And i watched it 5 times in a row. I am not joking!
Listen to what they say..ahhh..it's melting! ;)

fly me to the moon where there's no you.
happy white day, two-faced.

baby-cupcakes

rain and tears are the same.

is it?

i've just finished downloading my msn. and it makes my hips cry :(
2 hours just for downloading. gees...
but i like this better :D
and i m gg to find those eye-catching skins then.

tomorrow : baby-cupcakes :)

back from the chaotic network

so im back w/ the system nice and not troublesome :)))
but then idk what to write here..haha.
well, i might not smile so much these days, idk why.
i don't share so much things anymore now. i changed. that's what some of my fellas said.
this is not on purpose. maybe this is just one of the phases of my life.
ah, let it flow..you'll find a different me :)

and i miss playing my pet society. but when i play it, i just feel like i am so lack now.
then i need to download my msn's scripts once more. arghhh.. i am darn lazy to do :( tomorrow will have chm & IT test.
IT is not the pain in my neck, but sure chm will do. wish me luck, eh? :))

me & Thomas have planned for a-hundred-cupcakes this 14th.
And will be joining GMS' event with Irene, i guess :))

Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength,
while loving someone deeply gives you courage.

♥
i want to be with my girl :(
i miss her most now.
i didn't meet her online tonight..
hope she'll definitely make it this March.

i don't confess.

.

;(

avocado.

HEEELLOOOOOOOOO ppl !!!!
:DDD
i misssssss you so ! yeah! you know i do!
friends who are really with me recently will know how much i miss this blog :p
hyper deh. hahaha.

one week. nothing much happen. i am still fine :))
this morning i went for a morning walk with other 300+ teens in cemara.
last night Calvin went to my house and we chatted alot & he asked me to join then.
I thought it's nice to wake up early in the morning and went for some workout, so why not?
It started @ 6.30 and 1 of the organizer asked me to head one of the line 0_0
I was a bit shy, really. I just know 2 from 300+ ppl there. gosh.
But so lucky that 2 girls introduced themselves after the walk :D
They said that they are so familiar with my face o.0?
ahaha.

well. i still got sooooo many probs with my networks and system.
sht. i hate :(
sorry for the ignorance anw..

have a good night!

♥ + : + )

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
to
my dearest sister,
Henny Purnama.
Hope you'll like the gift from me to you :)



anak yang dari rumah ampe tea garden
trus"an ngomong "hari ini gw cakep banget yah.."
narsis sekali...











singkat cerita,
hang out ga jelas gitu deh. trus pulangnya dijemput mami trus spa.
abis tuh langsung pulang.
capek.

p.s : You, pray for your own bet ! :D

goodnight, xoxo.

BIRTHDAY GIRL :)

first of all,

happy fifteenth birthday
to



haha..
Let's say that she's one step closer to the word called mature :p

well,
heard something this afternoon right after rushed back to sch.
:(
those efforts, those hopes, those times..
and little did he know how we do care so much about his feeling and his pride...

there you are, the most beautiful moon,
but the sun is still the greatest of all.

and tomorrow,
it will be my ♥sister's day! :DD
she's turning 29 in just couple of hours more..
she's a very tough woman. she's very independent.
and we are really proud of her :))
going to accompany felix to find smth for his girl's birthday.
malesssssss :(

randomsssssssss.

an extra :



goodnight.

may i ?

i wish for a better tomorrow, when i don't care anymore.
i wish for a happier tomorrow, when i don't cry anymore.
i wish for a grateful tomorrow, so i won't regret anymore.
i wish for a braver tomorrow, so i won't fear anymore.

i please...

may i?

empty saturday

so i went out w/ mom today.
went to repair my school shoe and buy some baking stuffs.
and today's highlight is : I went to have my haircut.

p r e v i o u s

a f t e r

i cut 6 cm of them.
well, it's quite short now.. idk what to say.
haha :p
i love it anyway :)

went to pecel lele wajir for dinner. do you guys still remember the boy in "The Golden Egg"?
I met him, still, selling the eggs. He was offering them to mom and i don't really pay my attention to him. But then he kept standing there and asking. So i raised my head to look at him. Well, he looks thinner then. But the eggs he sell are expensive. It's twice the price compare to a place where my mom always buy at. haha. But then mom bought 10 eggs.
finished dinner, went home.
:)

♥yes, he is always like that..
and that's why i like him.

aku ngak senang hari ini.

pagi" mood ak uda dirusakin cewe" rese.
darn. cari masalah bget sih sama orang.
apa lu? maen triak doank. brani na rame'.
ga zaman kalee..kenal lu aja nga yah. plis deh.

trus. no more better morning deh.
asli emosi.
temen sebangku ak si wen" juga nga dateng.
sakit gigi katanya. jadi si felix pindah k sbelah ak.
untung dia ga cerewet hari ini. kalo nga kasian dia. ak marahin abis"an.

and kelas juga kayanya ga semangat banget hari ini.



ada si Hendra yang baru bangun tidur.
trus siangnya yah lumayan lah..
ke mm buat lunch sama mei, te, cia di ayam penyet ria.
trus gaming bentar abis tuh cabut deh.



score yang ga ada bagus"nya.
22 pula..



si ciacia & tete berpose nunggu powercard =.=

trus pulang skolahnya
di suruh ke tempat bass buat ngambil ini..



dari Fred :)
thankyou..

trus ada yang pegi ga bilang" nih kayanya..

you, takecare & have fun..

and i wish to crave a curve line in my face...
*deep sighs*

white horse.

it's raining outside..
it's raining inside..
i don't wanna be so gloomy.
people would think that i am a loony.
:(

cause i'm not a princess,
this ain't a fairy tale.
i'm not the one you'll sweep of her feet,
lead her up to the stairwell..

worst valentine

it was my worst valentine's day ever, i think.
first, i don't have any driving license. but mom let me drove.
so i fetched irene, then went to jessica's. There's nthg wrong till i loopholed the red light in Pemuda street.
WE didn't notice it. ok, it was my fault cause i was the one who drove the car.
So yaa..the police stopped me and asked me to show my license and STNK thingy.
Actually i have the STNK but i told the police that i don't have. and so the license.
*with my f-ing innocent look*
and i pretend like i didn't do smth wrong. the police kept like frightening us by telling that we'll go to law court and blablablas.
and jessica was trying to give him money, yea, like our parents do.
haha. and he was like jaim jaim and said "ahh..ga bisa ini dek ga bisa.."
surely he wants the money ok..ck.
and he kept forcing me to show him my license and i even nearly screamed at him.
how can i show him smth that i don't have??? stupid !
and at last he took our money... see? =\

and so we went to MW. there's no valentine's atmosphere over there, even the candle lite was useless.
Yeah, the point is : we don't have couple :(
so right after we finished our dinner, we went back home.
sent jessica to tabobah, and nearly lost.
how stupid i am. haha.

kinda uncomfy for me
cause i kept listening to one same topic - him.
i mean, what for ?
showing off? no need, ok.
i was like a stupid stranger,
listening to those stories,
you kept telling he blablabla and me blablabla
oh and then he also thisthisthis and i thatthatthat.
and I couldn't give any single comment.
fun eh?

chocolate suffered me enough.
can i just look back
but not remembering all your words?
cause they're just words.
they're just spoken,
they're empty...

looking for nothing.

Last beverage → es kelapa
Last phone call → mom
Last instant message → kenny
Last song you listened to → John Mayer's
Last time you cried → few days ago

HAVE YOU EVER:

Dated someone twice → ??
Been cheated on → i don't know
Kissed someone & regretted it → not yet
Lost someone special→ yes.

IN THE PAST MONTH HAVE YOU:

Fallen out of love → yes.
Laughed until you cried → stomachache i guess.
Met someone who changed your life → no
Have you kissed anyone on your top friends? → yes
How many ppl on your top friends do you know in real life? all of em
How many kids do you want to have → 2 or 3
Do you have any pets → used to have an american bulldog
Do you want to change your name → no
What time did you wake up today → 5.30 as usual
What were you doing at midnight last night → sleeping
Name something you CANNOT wait for → going to college
What's one thing you wish you could change → my luck maybe
Have you ever talked to a person named Tom → Tommy i had.
What's getting on your nerves right now → tomorrow's plan.
What's your real name → Shelly
Zodiac sign → Gemini
Elementary/primary School → SD St.Yoseph
High School → chandra kusuma & Sutomo 1
Hair color → naturally black
Long or short → long
Are you a health freak → no. i eat junk too.
Righty or lefty → right

FIRSTS:

First surgery → never
First piercing → when i was 14.
First best friend → shelly efendy khoo
First sport you joined → swim
First pet → dog
First vacation → forgot
First crush → HAHAHA i don't remember :p

CURRENTLY :

Eating → nothing
Drinking → nothing
Waiting → final destination 3

YOUR FUTURE :

Want kids? → might be
Want to get married?→ yes.
Careers in mind? → a pastry shoppe or cakery or cafe & have my own shoe label !

HAVE YOU EVER:

Kissed a stranger → no
Drank hard liquor → no
Lost glasses/contacts → no.
Ran away from home → guess not
Broken someone's heart → maybe
Been arrested → no
Turned someone down → yes
Cried when someone died → yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

Yourself → most of the time
Miracles → sometimes it does happen eh? :)
Love at first sight → big NO
Heaven → yes
Santa Claus → no
Kiss on the first date → no
Angels → maybe... :)

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :

Is there one person you want to be with right now? → yes
Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time → no. never will i.
Do you believe in God? → yes.

intuition

2 of my class mates lost their things recently.
A boy lost his laptop, and a girl lost his mobile.
WTH.
don't be such a coward.
You're just putting a mask of your silence.
Shame on you !

this is what i bake at 6 this evening.
yes, they're my little present for little 14th February of mine :)

it split into two.

what on earth is going on?
i am not showing my emo side,
but here i am going to tell you what makes me so emo these days.

first,
i never want a friend who LIE ON ME.
eventhou we're not close. we even only know each other for several months,
but you should think that no body wants to hear a lie.
I am not judging you as a liar,
but for me, once you lie, i'll just remember you as a liar.
i am not that fool to be fooled aroung by you, girl.
and i really consider you as my friend whom i think i could go on well w/
don't know that it would end like this..
sebenernya uda lama aku sabar" sama kamu ya.. :(
you always act innocently. yeah, that's what bitches do, right??
BIG SORRY, i put no trust on you anymore.


second,
another messed-me-up-news.
my very best friend, both Eveline and Felix moved back to their hometown, Jakarta.
Which means, we wouldn't met until don't-know-where-and-when.
She didn't let me know before.
She informed me just an hour before she got to plane.
And we even didn't met for a farewell... *sigh*
I have been through the same thing twice, dear..
:(


third,
for you*
you made me think that promises are only words spoken.

turn me down?no? yes?

Yesterday...

this two guys accompanied my whole day.
We arrived at place on 8 and went home at 6.
Had badminton match(es) yesterday, and they will still compete for the next round.
While me- Jon & I lost the game.
We won for the first round. But then harder couple beat us :(
have to admit that they are really hard thou. HEHE.
so as well as i reached home last night,
i rushed to take a shower. i sweat litres yesterday !!
who cares, it's good right? ;))
and right after shower, i went straight to bed.
yes, a very early one, at 7.35 pm. but i could still feel the pain on my neck.
ck !

and this is my dinner for tonight. a bowl of veggie salad.
well, at first i really felt like anak tiri cause my mom had her very mouth-watering dinner :(
mom said : "DETOX, DEAR !"
and i feel like ...............

;(((

no cap go meh party this year..
but still have to greet you guys,

happy 15th night
(wth idk how to say it correctly, sorry, my bad :) )

you had me falling for you honey,
and it never would've gone away.
you used to shine so bright,
but i watched it all fade away...

beats part II.

i thought i'll be late for the race cause i left home at 4.40
but luckily i didn't.
I arrived at 5 sharp and 3 others were keep mumbling.
SORRY ! :oo
today's match was won w/o effort. haha.
caused that our opp didn't do the re-registration thing.
thanked them for not re-registrating, yes ;)) :p

we were recorded for 00:01:01.
another one have 00:01:00.
and the other one have 00:00:57.
*sighhh*
why they are damn fasttt??
T.T

and tomorrow,
badminton match will be held..
damn, i am nervous now.
bet that i won't be able to sleep tonight. geessss..
hahaha..
wish us the best luck, ok?
;)

.xoxo, goodnight.

beats.

i watched the game today after school. quite fun for the trompah. and i felt a lil' bit of regret for not joining my team :(
well, it passed anyway. HA HA.
and tomorrow i'll have my estafet race on 5 pm, shall be there on 4.
and the day after tomorrow, i'll have my badminton match.
I'll play double with Jonathan Horizon versus my cousin's class.
wew.. we don't even have any prep. :((
well let's hope for miracle then? ahaha. sounds lame lah..

dating w/ apples

I am not feeling well this morning.
I vomit twice & feel like wanna vomit again for every food i saw.
*sigh*
So the things i could throw into my mouth
are just
Apples & Oranges & Mineral Water.

"an apple a day keeps the doctor away,
but if the doctor's yummy,
throw the apple away."
;p

HE HE HE.

someone looks like had picked up another blooming flower,
and i guess so the flower...

time to grow :)

well i was having a chat with a friend who recommend me this song.

Time to Grow by Lemar. Never heard any of his before. hehe.

i love the song, really. and this is some part of the lyrics.

post for you before you go to bed.. :)

Last night I tried but I couldn’t sleep,

thoughts of you were in my head.

I was lonely and I needed you next to me.

Life was harder since you left.

I never meant to do you wrong.

But now all is said and done

I hope you wont be gone too long, nooo..

Where do I go,

what do I do,

I can’t deny i still feel something,

And girl I wish, you could say you feel the same.

You’ve broken the bond, I gotta move on,

But how do I end this lonely feeling?

You’ve gone, I’m here, alooone,

I guess it's time to grow.

crying time is over

I know I can’t control her feelings,

if she won’t return, then I guess I’ll be a man

and move on.

Time to grow,

And move on; make life better than it was before,

I think I can make it,

And move on, make love better than I did before

Time to grow,

And move on, make life better than It was before,

Though you've gone,

And I’m here alone,

I guess it's time to grow..

Grow, I'm grown..

how smart are you, hu?
people talks your bad and you can't even think twice before you react.
please think about the concequences you'll get okay, miss pathetic.
those moves you are taking just keep showing how lame you are.
sad you did not realize, hu?
hey miss..

LIFE PLAYS HARD,

CHEAT HARD.

SO,

BEHAVE EVEN HARDER !