another disappointment

yes, i know.
thanks, dear :)
you are the best. i know..i know the best is yet to come.
they- who don't deserve it at all- will just realize at the time they regret.
:)
thanks for all.

whooopss.

Here,
random photos took on wednesday, 28th January 2009.
Located @ : Taman Simalem.

well,
it rained that day so the photos aren't really good yes? :(
a good place to visit actually :)


and so i am having a conversation w/ shelly & JJ.
i miss them :(
and my long-lost-contact-primary-classmate :
Ivan Junio
texted me just now ! :D
i was like so shocked, thinking that almost 4 years we had lost contact.
text(s). that's all we had. haha.

and tomorrow, my sist is gg back to bali :(
sad have to send her back so fast.
and yes, school is gg to start just in couple of days.
oh, sun plz w/ Jessica tomorrow :)

goodnight, xoxo.

my sister came back here yesterday. She bought me this watch :D



and papa suddenly phoned mom & took us out for dinner :)




(idk how to explain mom's expression :p)

and after dinner, me, mom, and sist went to the temple.
We wrote our wishes on a card and hung it on this tree :DD
i wrote 2 cards just now.
one for my family & one for his family =)





and also, we did the light up thingy.
this is for wishing things too.
and yes, the 2nd from right is mine :))
hope it'll come true someday..




and then suddenly J rang me,
asking where i am, and shortly,
we're gg to dinner; together w/ his 2 brothers, emma & cecilia.
another dine for me.
two in a row ! so let's see, im gg to be a pig in a week =="

so final sayings :

For last year's words belong to last year's language
And next year's words await another voice.
And to make an end is to make a beginning.

HAPPY NIU YEAR [!]
:D

on the way to Shelly's residence.



post.a.pose



rushed for meals @ excelso.



greedy eater w/ satisfied faces :p



The girl in my left requested to take this photo :pp



♥ STITCH ♥



we.are.SHELLY
♥♥♥♥

so cny is just couple of days forward, yea??
and i alrd got my hong bao from my dad
cause he left Medan this afternoon.
yes, it means that daddy won't be here for cny :(
and today is last one before another meet w/ Shelly.
kinda fun yet tiring today ;)

=)

Yes !
Shelly is back yowwwwww :DD
and we headed up to gelato right away after school.
planned to skip my afternoon class, but for some reasons, i prefer not to :)
after gelato then she sent me home
planned to sleepover @ hers but because of papa,
i refused it.
And she is having her family supper part she said
and she was like complaining why i refused the sleepover :pp

and i am damn full tonight.
full enough from gelato,
then papa ordered
crab with black pepper sauce ,
and mom cooked my favourite
ikan asam manis + kangkung belacan.
Just my pleasureeee !!! xD
but sad, i can't eat them anymore.
so i just eat the crabstick :(
i want that fishfishfish :(

tomorrow :
SUN w/ Shelly ♥
She's gg back on Tuesday.
so gonna spend sometime w/ her tomorrow :)

So i ended up reading this
and were strucked by this note from a friend in fb.

Tips for Better Life

1. Take a 10-30 minutes walk every day. And while you walk, smile.
2. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
3. Sleep for 7 hours.
4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy.
5. Play more games.
6. Read more books than you did the previous year.
7. Make time to practice meditation, yoga, and prayer. They provide us with daily fuel for our busy lives.
8. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
9. Dream more while you are awake.
10. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
11. Drink plenty of water.
12. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
13. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.

14. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.

15. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.

16. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.

17. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
18. Smile and laugh more :D
19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
20. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
21. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
22. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.

23. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about. Don't compare your partner with others'.

24. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
25. Forgive everyone for everything.
26. What other people think of you is none of your business.

27. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

28. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.
29. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
30. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
31. The best is yet to come.
32. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
33. Do the right thing!
34. Call your family often.
35. Your inner most is always happy. So be happy.
36. Each day give something good to others.
37. Don't over do. Keep your limits.

So daddy is home since yesterday.
What a surprise cause he didn't inform me like he used to do.
HAHA :D but i m gg to suck those smokey air =="
well, have to help papa to stop smoking then !!

p.s : you will see. someday...

1,2,3,4,.......5.

"..I'm tryna be strong
But the strength I have is washing away.."
Akon - Right Now

isn't this just so obvious that i still **** you badly?
i keep struggle w/ my own thoughts & are messed up by them.
say i am a dreamer, say i am naive.
but this is what i am happy to be.
say i am dumb, say i am weak.
but i know what i am doing for sure.
if only you figure out something,
it worth. i really meant it.

If you asked me to pick a number around,
I'll definitely stop @ 5.
You should know the reason if you really have understand me so.
so how is it going, dear you?
imy...much.

note for my lil' M :

they are just bunch of dumb-asses who don't know you at all.
they hate you because they don't understand you.
they don't understand you because they don't know you.
but believe me,
once they know you, they'll understand you.
once they understand you, they'll like you, M.
so take it easy, don't mean on what they said,
because they are just farting around.
=)

Indian's jokes.

So my bro's girlfriend sent me this e-mail.
Ah, i love her. she always send me this kind of freaking funny jokes!

LOL :DDDD

Boss: Where were you born?
Sardar: India ..
Boss: which part?
Sardar: What 'which part'? Whole body was born in India .



2 sardars were fixing a bomb in a car.
Sardar 1: What would you do if the bomb
explodes while fixing.
Sardar 2: Dont worry, I have one more.



Sardar: What is the name of your car?
Lady: I forgot the name, but is starts with 'T'.
Sardar: Oh, what a strange car, starts with Tea. All cars that I know
start with petrol.


Sardar joined new job. 1st day he worked till late evening on the
computer. Boss was happy and asked "what you did till evening?"
Sardar: Keyboard alphabets were not in order, so I made it alright.

Museum Administrator: That's a 500-year-old statue u've broken.
Sardar: Thank God! I thought it was a new one.


At the scene of an accident a man was crying: O God! I have lost my
hand, oh!
Sardar: Control yourself. Don't cry. See that man. He has lost his
head. Is he crying?


Sardar: U cheated me.
Shopkeeper: No, I sold a good radio to u.
Sardar: Radio label shows Made in Japan but radio says this is 'All
India Radio! '



NOW THE LAST TWO ULTIMATE:

In an interview, Interviewer: How does an electric motor run?
Sardar: Dhhuuuurrrrrrrrrr. .....
Inteviewer shouts: Stop it.
Sardar: Dhhuurrrr dhup dhup dhup...


Tourist: Whose skeleton is that?
Sardar: An old king's skeleton.
Tourist: Who's that smaller skeleton next to it?
Sardar: That was same king's skeleton when he was a child.

Sounds stupid yea?

hahahahahahahahaha. :)))

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countdown

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i am going to die soon, ithink ;((

P2S1, opening.

bunch of hopes..
cup of memories..
bouquet of future..
life is enjoy, dear..
:)

So me&Shervia skipped my afternoon 2-lesson-for-TOEFL-by-Ms.SuperKillera.k.aFriska
and just stared at those students who were busy preparing for the opening p2s1.
note : It's an annual shool's event and is filled by competitions.

And then both of us saw the Mr.Balloons in school front.
And we even begged to them to sell their balloon to us :p
Ya, at first they refused to. But as we begged, they finally agree :D
so i got yellow and white for Sher's.

And after school, Sutomo1 held the opening of P2S1.
this is my first year here, first time enjoying this event, first time to join too =)
Alfian offered me to join the hypnotizing class & i joined =="
wasting time actually, but i can't deny that i was curious about it :p
so yea........it's a real time wasting *sigh*
and i couldn't watch the show ! hell, i missed it.

Actually tomorrow morning, my team had planned for a training for the trompah.
But seems like i won't go, as mommee asked me to help her for the baking things.
Sorry, girls :((


Quote of the day :

Hope is but the dream of those who wake.

goodnight people :)
xoxo

let's face this

Just so you know - Jesse McCartney

I shouldn't love you, but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you, but I can't move
I can't look away..

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make the feelings stop

Just so you know,
This feeling's takin' control
of me and I can't help it.
I won't sit around..
I can't let her win now.
Thought you should know,
I've tried my best to let go
of you but I don't want to.
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know...

It's gettin' hard to be around you.
There's so much I can't say.
Do you want me to hide the feelings?
And look the other way...

This emptiness is killin' me
Im wondering why I've waited so long
Lookin' back I realize it was always there, just never spoken
I'm waitin' here,
Been waitin' here..

P.S : I just love this song too much =)

so i read through Shirly Hardjono's blog and found this
:)
sweet !!!!!!!!!

10th grade
As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

11th grade

The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Senior year

The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Graduation Day

A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral

Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me!
`I wish I did too...`
I thought to my self, and I cried...

touching, yea? :)
cherish everyone you have, dear..
you'll never realize how precious they are until they go away.

i am scared.
you really don't mind, do you?
but just tell you something,
this won't fade easily...

wooohoooo !!!

ahhh..
i am as high as cloud number 9 ppl !!!!
:DDD
i got my report today and the result isn't realy bad.
i got the 3rd rank out of 56 students in my class.
i expect higher range actually. but i've tried my best :))
& mom is proud, she said :D
yeah. finally i can prove to momdad&sist that i don't always disappoint them :)
kisses !!!

mama said so..

last night went to J's 17th party @ Emerald Garden.
He looked so formal yesterday. neat yet cool =)
hehe.
so this is the thing : We gave him a little surprise.
I baked him a coffee one, & i swear i never baked some1 a bday cake before.
& i felt different when i baked it. kinda nervous actually.and the result is

the things turned out quite okay, i think.
but then i was trembling while holding the cake. the candles melted so fast okay,
and because of this reason, we should took out 3 candles.
if no, it will be at the very 17 candles.. =(
and some thoughts keep jamming in my mind till now.
ah. idc. better did it than never right? =)

met JD too :)

BIG THANKS TO Alfian Gani & Reynold Andika.
and those who had helped too :)

so last night i slept @ 3. i was exhausted & still talked on phone w/ ag from around 12 to 2 smth.
well, we talked a lot for sure. and the advices given were like from-Daddy-to-his-little-girl one.
haha :p
i barely closed my eyes. still that thoughts were hunting me.
and if what ag said to me about the risk is going to be real, i should prepare.
i know i know. *sigh*

p.s : photos aren't w/ me.
'll upload a bit later :)

this ain't stop yeaa?

i feel really lost this morning.
i can't concentrate at all, and i kept cemberutan the whoooooolllleeee morning.
i mean why should i be this worried?
a friend of mine told me that i need not to worry bout them.
but still,
i feel like they are really my trouble.
huffff.
please please please please please.
don't take the wrong steps anymore, s.
don't do that very same mistakes ever again, s !

*Hey you,
ireallymeanthis.
ifyoureadthis,
ihopeyouwillrealizehowmuchihavebeenthrownontheseproblems.
idon'tmeantohateyou,
butifyoukeeplikeiamtheonewhoowedyouanappology,
thenweshouldjustfinishthisrighthere.
nomore,ihaddoneenoughtwithegoism.

J has reached his 17 :)

HAPPY SEVENTEEN
to
JANUARDY WIJAYA

Happy 08.01.09...
Happy getting older...
Happy being more mature...
Happy getting more respect...
Happy leading yourself forward...
and still bunches of best wishes from me to you.
p.s : you know i do :)

Early morning & i brought an oversized-for-me blackbox.
I couldn't see my way really clear & i was really scared if i bumped on someone later.
But luckily, it didn't happen. ;)

Well, nth much to tell today besides me who kept doing J's birthday card during lesson.
I forgot about it actually last night, and the idea just flow like the wind this morning. haha.
Idk whether he likes it or not. =\

He was REALLY WET when i went to his class for giving his present.
OMG ! He was wet from top to toe, i tell you. kinda funny too to have caught him in this situation :pp
But he is happy, i believe. *Ya kannn ??
So a quick meeting of us. well, i actually couldn't swollen out my words. ah.
but nvm.. :)

Lessons were super boring today. uhhhhh. if only i didn't put my hands on the card,
i would scream like hell at class i think.

Oh !

and happy 16th birthday to Bobby Kauri =)

..happy birthday..

freaking dag dig dug

i am really excited these upcoming days. OmG.
hope these things will go smooth. amen =)

I won't write much today.
i think i had my fever again. sucks.



Witti w/ her new fringe :D



Muka jutek ku keliatan banget. ups.



attention : witti's face xp



Kembar banget sih yang di blakang =="



Taken last night : sudden meet after tuition @ double7.

p.s : I'll miss ya, E.
Be good di rumah baru :p

oh, and my friends kept talking about the doomsday. is it true ??
i even joined 'em to take a look at the bible. gees =="

no offense =)

**** ***

i did nothing today except working out.
mostly sit-ups and the 8-figure things.
well, sch starts tomorrow which sounds GREAT !
I've hardly spent this holiday and nearly die !
*urgh*

Currently in love w/ Moon River - Audrey Hepburn ;)
sweet..! ♥



eh, how are you?
menghilang lagi ? huh ):

DO (s) & DON'T (s)

So here's my DO (s) & DON'T (s) for 2009 !

Let's come with DO (s) first :

Live in a HEALTHY lifestyle
Listen MORE to mommee
Study harder and of course,
achieve higher ! :D
EXPAND my social life
Emotionally grows STRONGER :)
LEARN more usefull stuffs.
FORGIVE & FORGET those unexpected things on 2008

DON'T (s) :

be that VULNERABLE anymore, please !
put too much TRUST on ppl besides fams.
always JUDGE ppl from their LOOKS.
spend money on not-very-important-things-or-person.
hope too much...

Reviews :
went to 3 top plazas in Medan w/ mommee today.
accompanied mom to find her new stuffs for cny.
and i felt like crying cause she's really choosy today & idk why.
huh.

sch starts the day after tomorrow. 5th of January.
okay, seems i have had enough holiday for my mind :)
let's get back to school !!!

oh, i didn't do my bio hw, eh? =\

let's see, oh!

i think im in love w/ black, white, red, & grey !
so Eveline asked me what's nice for her new room designs,
so i browsed for some ideas and caught these picts.


i love the window and some touches for the carpet there


kinda like messy look, but attention to the ceilings please !!!


i was thinking, how can i sleep on that bed???? i mean, i think i am going to get myself dressed up and take pictures with it anytime any pose !!!




again, i love those windows , curtains , and color schemes ! :D


this bed looks so comfy yea?? *smooch*
and i, personally want this bed for sure :(