today's highlight : I am IGNORED. thanks to you!

what should i do ??
what should i do ???

:SSS


ummm..ok..i thought that it was o k.
but then, yea, as what i have preddicted,
another person had already feel it too, my dear.
see how long you can survive ;)

and.
i vomitted last couple of hours ;((
idk why, suddenly i felt so so so unwell.
and my stomach was like a dancing cow you know.
ugh* T.T


to every girl on the world who feel like wanna dunk your head in the Earth,
the harder we fall, the more it hurts, the better we'll find a way to survive :)
*CHEERS*

CHRISTMAS IS COMING !

feel so funny playing with this game :D

see, it's snowing on december!

haha..

Xmas tree sponsored by J.

LOL.

December the 2nd

uhh*
i hate today.hatehate :(
you know, i spent last night, after tuition, with my sisa sisa energi yang tertinggal,
doing my biology homework!
Our beloved biology teacher, Ms.Maria, gave us a 120-qs-homework to do!
gees! and yeah, don't wanna get my name into that orange class note, so i did my homework.
i have done 30 of em before, and so there're still 90.
I went with 50 qs, and couldn't survive w/ the rest 40 because i was really exhausted.
So i went so early to bed too last night ;)

And andd..
about that biology hw. omfg. I really really dont understand why sutomo hire a teacher like her!
She even doesn't realize that the class she is teaching don't enjoy the lesson at all!
*__*
and what makes me went really mad was : She didn't ask us to collect the hw ! she didn't even ask about it ! oh, sh*t !!!
How stupid i am to ignore math lessons just for rushing that 40 qs left !
How useless my effort is after skipping my b'fast just for that AT LAST-NOT-COLLECTED-HOMEWORK !!
scream! scream!! scream !!!

and again,
sociology teacher, idk what his name is =.= hit my palm because i kept laughing in the middle when i tried to read the question he asked me to.
And yesterday, my form teacher hit my palm too, with damn thick ruler til my palm is oche now. is it my bad? or socio teacher was in purpose to hit in the same spot?? grrrr...
it's hurt ;(

anw, when i turn over my step ahead book,
i found this poem :))
nice one..i love it!

"After a while you learn
The subtle difference between
holding a hand and chaining a soul.

And you learn
That love doesn't mean leaning
and company doesn't mean security.

And you begin to learn
that kisses aren't contracts
and presents aren't promises.

And you begin to accept you defeats
with your head up and your eyes ahead.
With the grace of a woman,
not the grief of a child.

And you learn to build all your roads on today.
Because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans,
and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight.

After a while you learn
that even sunshine burns if you get too much.
So you plant your own garden
and decorate your own soul
instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.

And you learn
that you really can endure.
You really are strong..
You really do have worth..

And you learn with every goodbye, you learn.."

Hey, i went for an article which accidentally i found. hahahaha..

Few things hurt more than being dumped. In fact, most people would rather be body slammed by a sumo wrestler than endure the pain and loneliness of heartbreak.Though breaking up is depressing, your life's far from over. It's important to see the end of a relationship as the beginning of a new chapter in your life. Here are a few tips on how to let go of your ex and move on with your life.

1. Be Nice To Yourself
Breakups happen to the best of us. Actually, they're a normal part of being a teenager. It's important to cut yourself some slack when you're feeling vulnerable and rejected. Let yourself mourn the loss, and remember that you don't have to be perfect all of the time—or any of the time. Nobody is!

2. Accept Your Single Status
Getting over your ex is virtually impossible if you're fantasizing about getting back together. It's important to learn how to be happy as a single person before you start to date again.Being single gives you the freedom to do what you want, when you want. Watch a cheesy movie you would never admit to liking. Switch off your cell phone at the time your ex used to call. Perform a cleansing ritual, such as throwing away her yearbook photo or deleting his mushy e-mails. You'll be amazed how much better you'll feel.

3. Recognize and Release Your Feelings
Breakups can cause a range of unpleasant feelings, from deep sadness to intense anger. It's important to identify what you're feeling, acknowledge that it hurts, then let it go.If you're struggling with the "letting go" part, try writing what you feel on a piece of paper, then ripping it up. When you're feeling really awful, taking a nap or going for a walk can help ease the pain and break the cycle of negative thoughts.In general, try to get your demons out in a constructive way, such as sports, music, art or journaling. It's also OK to cry, scream and complain about how bad you feel. Find a secluded place to get out the nastiest feelings, then seek out friends and family to lend a listening ear and a shoulder to cry on.

4. Remember Your Ex's Flaws
It's easy to get teary-eyed thinking about his adorable brown eyes or her cute way of answering the phone. But what about your ex's not-so-great qualities? Remind yourself just how annoying, boring or insensitive your ex could be, and you'll be on your way to recovery.

5. Resist the Urge To Contact Him or Her
One of the worst parts of a breakup is the loneliness. Use all the willpower you've got to resist calling your ex when you're feeling lonely and sad.Though your ex may have been a source of comfort in the past, calling him or her for an ego boost will only make it harder for you move on. Look for new sources of support among friends, family members, counselors and online support groups.

6. Get a New Hobby
Without a boyfriend or girlfriend to entertain, you have a lot of freedom to try new things. Indulge yourself in some activities that didn't interest your ex, whether it's hockey, ballet or bird watching. Take a photography class, start writing poetry or join a club that interests you. You'll meet new people and feel good about yourself, which will attract both friends and admirers.

7. Don't Obsess About What Went Wrong
Many breakups don't have a specific cause. They tend to happen when two people have been growing apart for a while. This isn't to say you shouldn't reflect on what you could have done differently in the relationship, but it's not helpful to dwell on the whys and wherefores.Instead of focusing on the past, live in the moment and begin to dream about the future. You'll find a boyfriend or girlfriend who's at least as great as the last one—and perhaps a better match. Who knows? That special someone could be right around the corner.

sunday isn't that bad.

before...



after...



i bake this baked-macaroni for lunch but it doesn't taste really nice :(
not enough cheese!
haha. and i spend my sunday by working out. yeaa..excercise, sweating, counting ;)
I am on my process. hahahaa..

introducing you a new spot in medan :)
this is where i last felt so emotionally uncontrolled.
LOL*

grow up S..

you've got so many things to catch up with !

:)

if only.

mama said : "jangan bodoh."

ok. i know what she's actually trying to tell me..

And friday after school, i love that afternoon.
Shel fetched me up from school then rushed to deli plz.
She helped me calm down. We both sat down for a coffee break.
Sat down and talked. No gossip-ing but a deep conversation.
Accompanied by a cup of machiatto and cheesecake, i feel...uh..idk how to describe.
Told her about what's up w/ me, blablabla..
But one thing for sure, i want to have her as my best bestfriend for a lifetime.


And you, who decided to walk away..
I don't know how do you feel right now.
I miss you too much..
oh, if only i could..

November the 27th

S, lift your head upward :)
there's nothing to be worried anymore..
it's clear, it's over.
Cruel it is, but how lucky you are to have tasted those beautifull dreams..
Goodbye is just a new way to say hello.
Goodbye lover, hello again to our checkpoint.
Keep your promise, I won't forget.
Yesterday i was still that girl who cried at 2 am and couldn't find a way to sleep.
Today i'm still that girl who cried at 2 pm and couldn't find a way to stop.
Tomorrow i know there'll be another me.
But just in another point of view..
Nothing i can do but face these things positively.
Heartache? No one desires it..no one's craving for it..but it comes to people whenever it wants.
Somesays, love is a big illusion. I don't think so. Love is a part of life, it plays hard.
What goes around, comes around. That's what i believe in..
I try to be tough. I try to stand this pain. I try to cover everything up.
I try to stop being a crybaby all day long. But the more i cry, the better i feel, oh, but only after it.
Humpphhhh................................................
People change, S. you should too...-a little bit.
Keep that feeling for myself, won't expose to people other than him.

p.s : MLTR's That's why (You go away) really in to me for now..

oh-em-gee...

;(

moon river-ing..

Oh hello !

My class were having our chm labs today.
and we were practising chromatography :)

YEAA..playing with colors are always F-U-N !

I just found out how ignoring that person is.

with her effort to get attention from me

by sharing her littlethings which she turned to superbig things.

*sigh..but im not asking her to change.

let us see, is there any person who is ignored too besides me ;)

wondering where a simple life-being is....

boom! happy teachers' day tyl! :D

although it was raining the whole morning, but the ceremony went quite good :)

happy for thatt..

but unfortunately, i didn't have even a single picture of those moments.

so sorry guys..

and today is my v. first meet with jessica in her white blouse and green high-waisted pants. she is pretty :))

and i got 2 free lessons after the show. and you know what it meansssss ;))

PICTURING TIMEE !!! =DD

and
andrew suggested to give a surprise for our beloved private tutor.

he ordered a v.v nice cake w/ bluberry jam and strawberries+cherries on top!

yummyyyy !!!

and when im home,

i saw this lil' four-leg greenie jumper on my shoe.

;pp

hello, mister green jumper!

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good night ;)

xoxo.

cupcakes sunday :)

waw!
i am totally addicted !
aaawww ! aaawww !
J is also infected by me :pp
but he's got so many coins alrd.... ;((
and today irene will come over to bake cupcakes together :))
xoxo. have a nice day!
love you.

p.s : how i miss those words........

happy 22nd, ily.

happy 22nd happy 22nd happy 22nd happy 22nd happy 22nd happy 22nd happy 22nd happy 22nd happy 22nd happy 22nd happy 22nd happy 22nd
iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou.

P.s : someone has been not so romantic last night =.=

finally i won the raceeee !!!!

LEE CAME AS THE WINNER !!

idk how stupid i am, finding it's hard to win the race ;p

P.S : Friends and i are addicted to pet-society! ;D

=)

it takes time for me..

yes i know..

longing

.maybe i shouldn't have so much ego in me that it h u r t s me recently.

.maybe i shouldn't be this c h i l d i s h that i cry easily.

.and maybe i should stop h o p i n g to much for my long longing hopes.

i should quit from addictive things,

i should forget those bitter memories,

i should push my self upwards trough my life now.

i know i am not perfect,

i know i am silly,

i know how crybaby i am, and

i know i am too vurnerable these days :(

but i just can't seek the reason why...

p.s : i love you...

seventeenth

so me and mom isn't at a good condition today, i supposed to say.
aku maag pas les tadi gara2 nga makan dari siang ampe jam 8 =="
cuma di selingi air putih ama air kelapa doank.haha..
trus trus ampe rumah makan obat maag trus panasin sayur then makan dikit loh.
swt.. tolong deh jgn lagi.
trus trus. mama juga ni, ga maag sih, cuma badan na sakit smwa katanya.
trus barusan aja aku bantuin mama olesin salep k tangan na.
trus tempelin koyo d pinggang na :((
ampunnnn deh. fiuh..
masih ada pe er sosio menunggu kuu (!!)
s c r e a m ! ! ! ! !

P.S : HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY to MY DEAREST PARTNER IN CRIME,

LUISA EVELINE DE MARRYLAC GOH.

hope you won't mind if i mentioned your full name, baby ;)

so i went to asia mega mas to have our dinner with mommi just now.
told you guys, i ate lots! haha.
and so i broke my rules, of course =\
sooooo many mouth watering foods are served there..so many choices..
i couldn't stand it i admit :pp
then mom bought 2 portions of cakwe pizza and cakwe udang.
ckckk..and i just ate up 2 pieces of cakwe udang.
*sighss @_@
okayy..no more big dinner till i drop couple of kilos again!

and friendster still as menyebalkan as yesterdayy??
Your friends list may be inaccurately displayed. Please be assured your friends list will be accurate soon. - Friendster Team
that is what you'll see on your friends' list box. @#$%%&#@!

huf! School starts again tomorrow guyss..

better prepared =)

p.s : Happy birthday, Vincent Otto Liemiago :DD


xoxo.

sleepover is overfun!

i have sooooo much to tell !

so i was surprised again because my supergorgeous beloved shelly called me on friday afternoon, right after i finished doing my councelling test !

It was amazingly surprising when i heard her voice across that line. seriously, i know what might happened @ that time. hahaha :D

and i cant's stop smiling when i heard that she's going to fetch me up after school.

wow! meeting her again..so fun fun fun ! :D

so i slept over at her house on friday night. a very sudden plan, actually ;) hehe.

then we went to winston and william's home. long time hadn't meet 'em!

and what i found is that they are petting 4 doggiesssss !! xD

now you know how much i love to visit them.

LOL*

feels good when you're around with people who know you for your good and bad things :)

we had our dinner together @ MW's Pizza Hut.

sooo fullll !! xD

and what we did last night @ wins&will's place is : KARAOKE-ing.

4 of us, eh actually me & ton sang more than other 2. hahaha..idk why, my mood last night wastotally high.

we were LOL-ing all the time. emptied a bottle of grapejuice.

we finished around 11 and walked to shel's home.

after cleaned my face and brushed my teeth, both of us didn't find our pillow.

we watched GG instead of having our own dreams. haha.

so we watched untill 3 am if i've not mistaken.

hwammm.. *sleeping..

and today,

woke up at 11. *sighs..

i've never woke up this late.haha

we had our brunch, and continued watching GG :pp

p.s : Shelly had already infected by the virus. LOL.

And then we went to sun to buy GG seas.2

She's gg to spend her 1 month holiday in Medan by watching them.

hahah..have fun, Shel! :D

So she sent me home at about 5 pm.

And i started to feel tired when i stepped into my house.

how can huu?? idky. :))

and now im doing nothing except chatting.

FS is s-u-c-k !!

dear boy, i miss you :(

and other gossip class with gossipgirls ;pp

♥xoxo.

catch up catch up! i am searching informations for my project ! and i get lost now =="
breast cancer is the topic which we choose for this project.
cause i'm toooooo muuccchhhh curious for this disease since i received an email from my friend containing attachments and infos about breast cancer.
so i'm thinking of widened a little bit of *at least our class' knowledge and people who had read our project later :)
i am editing some from the sources i got from internet and friends, adding some pictures + details.
gotta submit this in our 3rd meeting later! *hurry hurry hurryyyyy !!
so yeaa..it's almost finished! haha. :D
and i still have my 40-made-by-myself-questions&answers + TOEFL hw(s)
*long deep sighh.....
well, enjoy your night, fellows..
loveyou..xoxo.