if only.

mama said : "jangan bodoh."

ok. i know what she's actually trying to tell me..

And friday after school, i love that afternoon.
Shel fetched me up from school then rushed to deli plz.
She helped me calm down. We both sat down for a coffee break.
Sat down and talked. No gossip-ing but a deep conversation.
Accompanied by a cup of machiatto and cheesecake, i feel...uh..idk how to describe.
Told her about what's up w/ me, blablabla..
But one thing for sure, i want to have her as my best bestfriend for a lifetime.


And you, who decided to walk away..
I don't know how do you feel right now.
I miss you too much..
oh, if only i could..